Maddy's Poem

I was not ready to start all over again
I knew these things makes me insane
But then i smiled with you over a joke which was lame
And i was ready to add my name to another surname

And This i did all over again
I knew these things makes me insane

I was not ready to share my pain
But it was different with you as i pictured in my brain
With you it was not at all a strain
Infact i laughed
And this i did without emotional drain

And this i did all over again
Even when i knew these things makes me insane.

Yes i fell in love again
This time i pictured it in spain
Slow dancing in the rain
Romancing on a train

Yes i did this all over again
Because these things makes me insane

The days were cold
The night was thinner
I remember that street
Where I hold the hands of that sinner

I was not bold
A little in fear
Didn’t I mentioned the night was cold
And he was near

My soul was sold
Oh, to the demon
I should have told
That he was playing with it like a Freeman

My life was now his to hold
I have listened to the stories that has been told
The world has no end
But standing there I knew it was wrong
When he flashed and my life took that fold

I was numb, nothing i could feel
And then finally i made that deal
Yes, He left me for a while
But, I know he will come back after walking some mile.

I had a crazy dream last night
In that I was having a fight
With the shadow self on my right
I had no one to tell
No one was in my sight

I was fighting but was still crying
I was leaving but was still trying

It was me on the battlefield
Alone I was trying to get healed
Yet another arrow came and broke my shield

I saw people laughing at me
They were saying
We hope you can now see

In hope that someone will come
Who will help me with some

One person came,
He faught with me for some time
I was happy and the swords were dancing in rhyme
But suddenly he escaped like he committed some crime

Again I m alone in that battlefield
This time without a shield

Waiting for the arrow to come
Some hit the ground
On my body, some I found

I saw a crazy dream last night
Still in hope, someone to hold me tight

This is poem I wrote which is close to my heart. That I wrote for girls who go out and live in the fear of getting touched inappropriately or being raped.

This is my way of expressing my fear on behalf of every girl living in fear of getting raped by the person or society.

So here it goes..

They care what you wear
Not what you fear

The day I come home late
If it is half past eight

My heartbeat rise (rises)
The fear inside me cries

Every part of me pray
Oh god , not this day

Cause I know it will happen
The day my body will be raped
Then the soul will die
The day I will stop my fly
All I will have , will be weeping eye

The day people will ask what you were wearing?!
How they were staring
The way they were tearing
Were you fearing?

The day everyone will have a eye on me
And I will hide my tears so that no one can see

Everyone will ask me to pick up my pieces
What about my life that has now creases ?!

The day my confidence will be crushed
All my dreams will be flushed

My wings will be torn
And they’ll say it was because of what you worn

The day will come
It will shake some

But, still I pray
Oh god! Not this day!!

So you were saying that you don’t want to talk
And I still remember in start when we were chatting you were the first one to knock

I m sorry if I said too much, I didn’t mean to
I was full of emotions and those words came out of the blue

So you said that you are a bad person
I was not mad at you, but the situation how that got so worsen

So you said when I asked you , nothing
And that single word told me everything

I m sorry if I m writing about you over a sonnet
But you know that’s how I protect my self like a bonnet

So you said stay away from me
I m sorry for sticking up to you like a bee

So you said, you do not matter
Oh it’s okay, even if these words are for me to scatter

I m sorry if I m too much
I m just a girl with an emotional touch

So you said erase all the memories
You know I need a proof while telling stories

So you said , this and that, and I don’t believe it

It’s just how you want to hurt me cause baby that was lit!

You are the words that I want to arrange together we can be a poem strange

Where i and you we both will rhyme
Where you smile I blush and we grow old with time

Where you will be the word and I will be the complete line
And here the word “us” will be entirely mine

Where I will be magician and you will be the magic
and our sonnet will be no tragic

People will sing us like a classic song
Where lyrics will be perfect, pure and strong

Where we will hold hands like two rhyming words

And in the sky our love will fly like those Bonnie birds.

You are near me

Yet so far

Creating all the memories

Setting high bar

We talked for hours

With all the blossom flowers

Never knew we could drift

Now it’s like a movie script

I wish I could write more

But my heart is now sore

Your memories are fading

Happiness and sadness are trading

I no more remember your touch

For you, nothing is left as such

I wish we would have never met

Sun that day should never have set

Wanted to be happy

Didn’t know how

But I’m stronger than ever now

I’ll come to this, I never knew

But for the experience, I’ll just say thank you!

For the journey that started with a simple hi!

This is from my side is the final good bye!!

Why were you crying last night
what you thought was not right
You know, your life is worth a fight.
And to others, it’s a light

You said you wanted to die
Is it really that bad,
or you are just telling yourself a lie.

If you can’t find a purpose I will give you one
Don’t you ever say that you are done
Chase your life, please don’t run
You will know, how you will miss out all the fun

If you can’t find the path, then be others guide
Be so happy, that you don’t remember when you last cried
Don’t worry, your friends will always be by your side
Now stretch your lips and smile, it should be real big and wide.

Smile people while you truly can !

To dear someone you should know you are not alone I’m there too,

Don’t worry things will come to you, have patience I know you are running out of it, and there I will say me too, but all we can do is wait. I know it has been hard and it will be hard to see your self-going through all the emotions you never thought you will go through, we are all part of something that has broken our heart, something that has ripped us apart and has made us create a new self for other people to protect our true self from getting hurt again, I know that.

Every time you let your heart get out, you let your soul connect with people you fear you might hold on tight this time but other person will lose the connection. Every time to rise up strong that but then the thread of memory inside your mind you still hold on to the thoughts that made you cry, the moment you were not so strong. Believe me, I’m still standing there, trying to melt that thread, trying to rise up again this time not to fall.

You know, you cry when they are there, you cry when they leave, then you question yourself that they should have stayed or I did the right thing by letting them go?!, you care too much. Believe me, I’m there waiting for all the answer I went wrong, and things I did right. Cause when things doesn’t happen accordingly we all hope for the little light where we were right so to move towards that hope.

Yours truly

A companion

20 years from now, sitting with my daughter looking at the photographs of the places I visited during my childhood.
“Mumma, is this heaven?” Asked my daughter. I am sure I m going to cry and say,”this was the heaven that once exist.”
Prophecy are being made that earth is not going to last long. I used to not believe in prophecies but I think I should now. We are killing it eveyday every step we are taking is against it. I remember how I used to dance in rain, how I used to make paper boats and float them into small ponds on the road. I m afraid that my children will not be able to enjoy those small pleasures of childhood.

I once told a gentleman once “you know you are polluting environment, this will make life difficult for your future generation”.He said,” I have money and I will earn more money, I will build castles to keep them safe”. I told him,”I am sure you can build anything you want with your money, but what if they ask you to see the beauty of nature you saw in your childhood, sir I am sorry to say you cannot built that”.
Why we want someone else to tell us that we are doing wrong why cannot we understand this on our own. We always wait for the second chance, but I am sorry this time we are not going to get one.

Please take one step towards green!